My Dear Girls,
My loves, my hearts, my souls. You’re off to school this week, and I’ll tell you a little secret: I’m feeling pretty conflicted about it.
I know you’re ready. But I’m sure going to miss you.
We had such a fun summer. We didn’t do any one thing that was especially noteworthy, but we did do a lot of little things, and those little things really did add up to a pretty awesome couple of months.
We had camp days and play dates. Visits to the lake and day trips to amusement parks. We beached at the Jersey Shore. You met your third cousins from Hong Kong. We took full advantage of the wonderful programming at our local library. We went into the depths of a cavern, took our first trip to Hershey Park, and took our maiden voyage as a family on a whitewater rafting adventure.
And then there was the ice cream. Oh boy, was there ice cream. I’m pretty sure I didn’t say no to any requests for ice cream.
No, our summer wasn’t perfect. Spending most of our time together means we’re going to have challenges and struggles. You two fought as siblings sometimes do, and I lost my shit as moms sometimes do. There were moments when I didn’t think I was going to make it another moment, and I’m sure there were moments when you wanted to exchange me for a less bossy mom.
But, Here we are! We made it. The moment I’ve looked forward to and dreaded in equal measure.
As we were packing up school supplies, I whispered to your Daddy that in about 10 years from now, we’ll be packing you up for college.
Sigh. Gulp. Ugh.
I can’t go there. It’s too soon. I’m not ready. You’re too young. For now, I have to worry about other things, like making sure that you’re kind to your fellow humans but also true to yourself. That you put into the world the goodness you hope to get back from it. I hope and pray that you don’t bully others and aren’t bullied by others. That you are kind to others and are treated kindly by others. That together, we can set the framework for you to have a happy, beautiful, meaningful life, and for you to be a force for good in this world.
For now, though, at this late midnight hour, I’m going to crawl into bed with each of you and feel your warmth and hear your breath while you’ll still allow me anywhere near you.
All My Love,